Recently I've been losing my 'I'm a survivor, I'm gonna Destiny's Child it' feeling a bit. Well, a lot. I am constantly surrounded by smart, young people at work. Those people seem to have life worked out at a much younger age than I ever did and seem (on the outside) to have had a … Continue reading That who thinks of the past, poke them in the eye with a stick (Finnish proverb, badly translated)
Trial by fire of P the recoveree (is this a word?)
We live in exceptional times. The fact that we manage to dress ourselves in the morning is an achievement in these times. But I guess the humanimal is an adaptive and inventive species and we do come up with tricks and tips to move forward, move on. I continue living, breathing and eating too. This … Continue reading Trial by fire of P the recoveree (is this a word?)
Just the few of us
aka the Corona post. When all of this first happened, I was of course full of anxiety and questions, like the most majority of us, I am sure. I *love* going to my hobbies, visiting libraries, going to the occasional pub night or gig - I am out most days after work. I had to … Continue reading Just the few of us
Expert-ease
Wednesday this week, another recovery anniversary...ooh, they're becoming so casual. Treated my work community to a small potted daffodil (it's spring y'all!) and had a rum&coke in the evening (and expressed sadness towards my man-friend who hadn't understood my rather explicit hinting at 'plz get me flowers for my celebratory day'). You can see from … Continue reading Expert-ease
Does the body rule the mind or does the mind rule the body…I don’t know…
....except I do think I do. Ladies and other folk, time for a classic 'I started my post with a Smiths quote' moment, it's been too long. Today, dear reader, I would like to, perhaps yet again, talk about the amaxing power of our somatic side (ie the thing we call the body), and how … Continue reading Does the body rule the mind or does the mind rule the body…I don’t know…
The phases of recovery, so far
One really doesn't know, when recovery is 'finished', when you've never been through recovery. On the last day of 2019 I observe the following: my recovery has moved so far in three phases, liberally translated from well-loved Finnish 'catch-phrases' of the ED treatment scene: 1. permission to be happy 2. hunger for life 3. I … Continue reading The phases of recovery, so far
My beefs, 2019 (ah, more like, my dreams, for 2020)
Last year, I set my goals for 2019: to climb atop of a tall tower, from which to admire views. To visit the city of Oulu. Those were my two goals for the year. I am happy to say, I met them. Clearly, at the end of 2018 I was wise enough to understand that … Continue reading My beefs, 2019 (ah, more like, my dreams, for 2020)
On memories, etc.
Well it was my birthday two days ago, so perhaps it is fitting to discuss the timeline of mine life here too, for life, experiences, achievements, age and ageing are the hot themes of the day for me in my recent ponderings. I wanted to discuss, as this blog did start as my recovery blog, … Continue reading On memories, etc.
On loneliness
Very few of us humanimals enjoy complete solitude. Throughout my teens and alleged adulthood I've wondered who these people are, for I am not one of them. I enjoy hearing my own thoughts and having my own space, but I love love love coming home to someone who I can share those thoughts, or my … Continue reading On loneliness
My brain’s a mush, my brain’s a mush
..and this is how I like to make sense of it all, by randomly starting this post and figuring out what wants to come on to paper as I go along. For I have not had time to hear my thoughts all so well in recent times. Work's been busy with new developments and new … Continue reading My brain’s a mush, my brain’s a mush
